1 April 2019 – FRET not, Stone for casting

As always, I celebrate this day when the Lord wrote to me in the sky on 1 April 2013. It was and will always be an amazing experience that I will never forget.

On this day, I went to Snyman’s Jewellers to find out what they would charge me to set the blue chalcedony stone that I got yesterday. Susan informed me that it would cost R600 and I knew I could not afford that anytime soon.

I was so happy when I found the stone and here was a dead-end street. I told them that I would have to come back another time, after I have saved up the money for it.  I took some silver with and asked if it would not be cheaper if I supplied the silver.  They informed me that it would cost almost the same, as they do not give much for the silver.

Cobus, Susan’s husband was whispering something close to her ear. We discussed it some more and then I told them that I wanted the ring as a reminder of God’s promises to me, but that I will have to come back when I can afford it.

Again Cobus whispered something and Susan then said: “Give me the stone”.  I replied that I will really rather bring it when I can pay as I don’t want them to make it and then I struggle to pay for it.  Again Susan said:  “Give me the stone, we are going to make you the ring.  God has blessed us a lot, we can do this for you.”


I was overwhelmed by their kindness. I set out a day before to find a blue chalcedony ring, with absolutely no resources and here it was all falling in place.  I was grateful to God for His sovereign provision.  Susan measured my finger and told me that it would be ready in two weeks’ time.  I was very excited.

3, 6, 8, 11, April, 29 May, 4, 13 June 2019 – Scotland & Ireland

Over the weeks that followed, Scotland popped up several times. Being of Scottish (Knox) and Irish (MacBride) descent, I was wondering if perhaps there was something to this and whether God had planted a seed in my heart, which He will allow to grow later on.

On 3 April my ear caught the name Scotland when the news was read on Radio Pulpit – Samoa was going to play rugby against Scotland.

Also on this day, I received the local newspaper and on the front page was an advert about the Highland Festival which takes place every year.

I was watching James Bond’s Skyfall on the 6th and I had forgotten that there is a part where the events supposedly takes place in Scotland.

On the 8th on Radio Pulpit, Dwayne van Rensburg was talking about their tour in Scotland.

Because I do not always get time to read the newspaper, they sometimes pile up until I do get time. This week I was busy reading through the old papers and on the 11th I came across a newspaper with the ad in for the Highland Festival of 2018, which appeared twice in that paper.

On 29 May, Brad and Wanda on Cape Pulpit were talking about Andrew Carnegie, the Scottish-born American businessman.

On Pulpit News on 4 June a Scottish family who found a very valuable chess piece, was mentioned.

On 13 June on Radio Pulpit – I think it was Bertha le Roux Waal and someone else – were talking about little churches in Scotland, Scottish music and the church in Europe.

16 April, 27 May 2019 – My ring

This day I went to collect my ring at Snyman’s. I was so pleased with it and it fitted perfectly.  The shape of the stone is not a specific shape for a ring, but it was perfect to serve my needs and the Snyman’s made a perfect setting for it.  Simple yet effective.

I wear my ring, everywhere I go out and I share my testimony of God’s goodness.

Sadly Cobus passed away on 27 May 2019. From what I understand, he did suffer from heart problems for years.  Sad as it is, I know I will see this brother in eternity.

24, 26 April 2019 – Disbelief and decisions

On this day, I started creating a message on how our decisions affect others, especially when they are based on disbelief or disobedience. Numbers 13:32 – So they brought to the people of Israel a bad report of the land that they had spied out, saying, “The land, through which we have gone to spy it out, is a land that devours its inhabitants, and all the people that we saw in it are of great height.”

I only published this message in July.

On 26 April Angus Buchan’s slot on Radio Pulpit was broadcast. He spoke on Numbers 13 and how a negative report had bad consequences for all of Israel.  It was very similar to the message I started two days earlier.  Uncle Angus highlighted Numbers 14:24 – “But my servant Caleb, because he has a different spirit and has followed me fully, I will bring into the land into which he went, and his descendants shall possess it.”  He continued by saying that SA should see the potential and not just the problems.

26, 28 April, 7 May 2019 – Bloom where you are planted, Hold fast what you have

On 26 April on Pulpit, Joyce Meyer was talking of the “Wilderness University” and she said “Bloom where you are planted”. It reminded me of my Blooming message of late 2017 and that God has a plan for me.

Also, at that time I was busy with my study through the Book of Revelation and I was also having doubts about the church I was attending at the time. I felt uncertain about some of the more serious doctrines and was contemplating leaving.  This saddened me, because I thoroughly enjoy attending that church and have grown to love the congregants.

On 26 April my aunt called me and told me in Afrikaans: “hou wat jy het”, translated:  “keep what you have”.  Immediately, I knew she was referring to Revelation 3:11 – “I am coming soon. Hold fast what you have, so that no one may seize your crown.” She then confirmed that it comes from Revelation.

Right then I knew it was God’s way of easing my mind about the church I was attending and suddenly after that, I received clarity on the doctrines I had doubts about.

On 28 June David de Bruyn on Radio Pulpit also quoted the “hold fast” verse of Revelation.

4 May 2019 – Dream of atomic bomb, He wants it all

The dream started with me being in an open area. There was no grass, just the hard ground and some palm trees.  There were some huts, made from palm leaves of which the petiole (stalks) were stuck into holes in the ground enabling the leaves to swivel and it only had leaflets on one side.  If they were all turned inward, it created a little hut and when turned outward, it would be an open area.  These huts were about 5 meters x 5 meters big.

Before these pics below, I have never seen anything like it.   However, in my dream I had seen similar structures to these.

There were unfamiliar people around me. Suddenly we all got gripped with fear, knowing that “it” was coming and that we needed to act.  Initially we thought it was an atomic bomb.  Some of the people wanted to jump in their cars and drive away.

I was shouting to them not to do that and that we must run into the huts, but not everyone listened. There was a pregnant woman sitting on a bench with a man sitting next to her.  There were some other people standing around as well.  They seemed unable to react.

I ran to one of the huts and turned the leaves to the closed position. A few people joined me.  I sat right up against the side, peeping through the leaves to see what will happen.  I asked God:  Lord, how are we going to be safe in this?  (It being a flimsy, paper-thin hut made of dried leaves.)

God: As you are safe in Christ, you are safe in here.

The next moment I heard what sounded like a wind, but without any movement. The leaves of the hut did not move.  It was like a silent, motionless wind that passed overhead.  I heard a crackling noise above our heads.  Tick …. Tick, tick …. Tick …. Tick, tick, tick.  Staight away I thought of electricity.

I managed to find a sound clip of electricity similar to what I heard in my dream. There was a lot of background noise and the clicking was somewhat soft, so I enhanced the clicking and reduced the background noise on this audio file to give an idea of what it sounded like.

The crackling carried on for a while then stopped. When we deemed it safe, we ventured outside.  I looked around and noticed that everything looked the same, except the people’s exposed parts – faces, hands etc – had burns on them.  But not like the burn of a fire, but a burn caused by wind, as indicated by the pic below.

The pregnant lady still sat there on the bench and the man too. I heard a baby cry:  “Whaaaaa”. I looked to see if the pregnant woman had given birth, but she did not.  I looked around and saw an elderly lady laying on her stomach, propped up on her elbows, her medium length hair covering her face.  She slowly turned her face in my direction, the hair falling away, exposing her face.  Then again came the baby’s cry:  “Whaaaaa” and I noticed that it was the old lady crying like a baby.  At that moment I realised that everyone had become like babies again, helpless and their brains were effectively drained, emptied.

Somewhere in my dream, I thought: “who is going to take care of all these people who have become so helpless?”  Another thought was that most of them will probably end up dying for lack of assistance.  The ones who survived, were very few in comparison.

To my left a strange woman and two children came driving past in a dark green Uno. They seemed to be fine.  And then I woke up.

Straight after I woke, I had a particular song in my mind the whole time: He wants it all by Forever Jones.  God wants it all today.  Do not wait for tomorrow, today is the day.  Tomorrow may not come.

As I was praying and pondering about this dream, a few points came up:

  • As Rahab and her family members were safe in the wall of Jericho and
  • As Noah and his family was safe in the ark, we will be safe if we remain where God tells us to be
  • Another point that came up, was the reminder of “The Flash” as explained in the movie The Book of Eli and this reminds me of Tesla’s invention to transmit electricity without cables as well as the HAARP technology referred to earlier in my testimony.
  • The Lord revealed to me that 2019 will be of significance. To my sister, He revealed 2020. For some time I have wondered if the transition between 2019 and 2020 is not a date of significance, after all, it is New Year’s Eve. Also because of the significance of my mother passing at midnight on New Year’s Eve, as well as Eddie’s comment of a war peaking in December.

Despite all these assumptions and what lies ahead, I was reminded of Psalm 91:7, 8, 9 – A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only look with your eyes and see the recompense of the wicked. Because you have made the LORD your dwelling place– the Most High, who is my refuge–

Whatever lies ahead, whatever may come, God is in control and we will be safe if we are in Christ. Our eternity is guaranteed.

8 May 2019 – Do not be afraid: Joshua 1:9

On this day, Johann Els of Radio Pulpit was quoting Joshua 1:9 and saying that we are not to be afraid or discouraged, that God is with us, even “when your world is collapsing”.

Joshua 1:9 – Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

As mentioned before, Joshua 1:9 holds a special place in my heart.

14 May 2019 – Move whilst the door is open

The Word for Today was about using opportunities that God gives us. At that moment I was in discussions with my employer to start a business together.

Whilst reading this piece, I felt strongly that I should take the chance and go into business. To blindly trust God and do what I think I should.

15 May 2019 – Siener van Rensburg Prophecy of me

On 15 May 1919 Siener van Rensburg made a prophecy about me. I know it seems self-inflated to say – like Joseph seemed to his brothers – but I cannot help that God has a big plan for me.  And, as it goes with big plans, comes big vision, revelation and big, unwavering faith.

I believe the Lord has placed these crumpets of encouragement on my path, so I may not lose focus or heart, as I often have. He is a Master at encouraging and it is only because of that, that I am still standing.

The prophesy goes like this – it is in Afrikaans: 15 Mei (1919).  Engelse wâans trek van die Weste naar johannesburg. Toe kom in die Noorde een vrouw mens uit zÿ het blauw oge en haar kleed is tussen wit en blauw.

In English: English wagons move from the West to Johannesburg.  Then in the North came one woman.  She has blue eyes and her clothing is between white and blue.

This prophecy is described in my testimony of December 2018.

As a reminder of this prophecy on this day, 100 years ago, I created a pic to remind me that God has a big plan for my life.

Re-looking this, I was also wondering if I will not be moving to Johannesburg sometime soon.

20 May 2019 – Fullness of time

On Radio Pulpit Janine and Wynand were speaking of the fullness of time.

Also, a man made a prayer request for his life partner.

Other sentences that caught my attention were:

  • All things work together
  • Stand in faith
  • And during the birthday message, “at the right time”.

I was going through one of those phases where I seriously wanted to stop believing and praying for my husband. The man that I believe with my whole heart, to be my husband, has a girlfriend and he does not see me.  I was contemplating getting off the rack and starting dating again.

But every time I get to this point, it is as though God reminds and encourages me to hold on and hold out.

Besides, whenever any form of interest from a man develops, it is as though God wipes it off the table before it turns into anything. As though He put me aside for safe keeping for my husband.  Several dates that just did not take place.  So I choose to fly under the radar and be as unnoticeable as I can. Until God’s fullness of time, though the loneliness hurts like crazy.  And the insults for still being single at my age.

25, 27 May 2019 – Ministry in business

On the 25th during the lesson study presented by Wynand at our church, he mentioned Nehemiah rebuilding the wall of Jerusalem with one hand working and the other holding a sword.

Earlier the week I experienced that businesses will be rebuilt, but one part will be work and one part ministry. It is time to bring the Lord back into our businesses, churches, schools, homes.

On the 27th on Pulpit, Sipho and Ayanda was also speaking of Nehemiah rebuilding the wall and building the Kingdom.

30 May 2019 – A missed opportunity

On the 30th of May, my employer and I sat down to have a meeting regarding the business I proposed to him.  He listened and then he made a recommendation of me taking a month’s unpaid leave to investigate the viability of the business.

It was not at all the response I expected and I then remembered the piece about moving whilst the door was open. As I sat there, I knew I had to say yes, but suddenly fear and uncertainty overwhelmed me and I told him that I cannot do that.  I insisted that I cannot.

He was fine with it, but I could almost literally feel the opportunity slipping through my fingers. I felt how it drifted away. Never before have I had such an experience and I realised with a shock that I can forfeit opportunities.

I used to have this philosophy that if God ordained it, it will happen. However, He commands our obedience.

A quick study of the “will of God” brought me to the following conclusion: there are mainly two wills of God and I have tabled a quick summary for ease of use.

God’s Will of Decree / Sovereign Will God’s Will of Command
This will is fixed by the Father and cannot be changed, unless by the Father. Matt 26:39 And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” This will consist of commands God gives us in which we may exercise choices. This will may change.  2 Kings 20:1  In those days Hezekiah became sick and was at the point of death. … “Thus says the LORD, ‘Set your house in order, for you shall die; you shall not recover.'” 2 Kings 20:6 and I will add fifteen years to your life.
The Will of Decree always comes to pass, whether it is believed and obeyed or not. It was God’s Will of Decree that Jonah preaches to Nineveh, but Jonah tried to run away.  However, despite Jonah’s disobedience, he ended up preaching to Nineveh, they repented and were saved.

As with any command, if not adhered to, there are consequences either immediately or in the future. The consequences for disobeying the Will of Decree may have very serious consequences – such as missing eternity.

The Will of Command is not always believed and obeyed and more often than not, broken. It may not necessarily come to pass.  As with any command, if not adhered to, there are consequences either immediately or in the future.  The consequences for not obeying the Will of Command may not always be as dire as missing eternity when not adhered to but may result in missed opportunities, which may have ripple effects later on.
God does not reveal most of His sovereign will too far in advance. He gave prophesies, but did not reveal all the details of every event.

Deut 29:29 “The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things that are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law.

The Will of Command is revealed in God’s Word, as well to individuals.

1Thes 4:3 For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you abstain from sexual immorality; up to verse 7

1Thes 5:18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

1John 2:17 And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.

The Wills of God are perfect, irrespective of which will it is. When disobeying either one, it may deprive us of the good plans God has for us, as described in Jeremiah 29:11.  That is why we must wholeheartedly seek Him and His will as described in Jeremiah 29:13.

Many times I despised my calling and told the Lord to give it to someone else, though it is not really what I want, it just sometimes feel so overwhelming, especially still going it alone with no one by my side to comfort or encourage me.

After this lesson, I became very aware to not curse my calling, but to embrace and cherish it.

1, 6 June 2019 – Unwavering faith of Abraham

On the first of June, I attended one of the other churches in Johannesburg and there a very dynamic young man named Aaron, was preaching. His love for the Lord was evident and it makes me very excited when I see young men completely sold out to Jesus.

Sadly many men that I have dealt with in the past are not sold out to Jesus. They want to stand with one foot in the Kingdom and one foot in the world and it does not work that way.

One of the topics that Aaron touched on was the unwavering faith of Abraham and it reminded me of the 27 March 2019 message about being closer to my promise than I realised.

On the 6th, Joyce Meyer was also talking of the unwavering faith of Abraham.

We need to believe God, just like Abraham did.

12, 14, 16, 17, 22 June 2019 – Ruth, Raise a hallelujah

My mother always used to tell us that she prayed about our names. She did not just randomly pick them, but she prayed about it.

On Radio Pulpit a caller named Trudie was commenting on Johann Els’ morning message about Ruth. I had missed it the morning before, but downloaded it off their podcasts.


Also, on the 16th Tyrell Haag was referring to God’s comprehensive providence and he mentioned Ruth.  On the 17th the book reading, by Ivan Koopman on Cape Pulpit, was about a character named Ruth – but in Afrikaans.  On the 22nd, Wynand in our church was hosting the lesson study for that day and he too referred to Ruth.

Whenever I hear or read my name so many times in a row, it is as though God is calling me to attention and that He has a message that He wants me to pay special attention to.

On the 14th I noted my great grandparent’s history, where they were born and where they moved to.  Knox-MacBride is a Scottish-Irish combination, which is a bit ironic as the Scots and the Irish do not always get along.

I found this joke on the internet. A bit harsh, but a bit true, perhaps:

There are four kinds of people in the UK –

First, there were the Scots who kept the Sabbath – and everything else they could lay their hands on;

Then there were the Welsh – who prayed on their knees and their neighbours;

Thirdly there were the Irish who never knew what they wanted – but were willing to fight for it anyway.

Lastly there were the English who considered themselves self-made men, – thus relieving the Almighty of a terrible responsibility.

The song, Raise a Hallelujah was playing on Radio Pulpit a few times that week on the 2 x 12th, 14th

This song reminds me to praise God in all circumstances.


16 June 2019 – My aunt passed away

On the 18th I was informed that my aunt had passed away on the 16th at the age of 80 years and 4 months exactly, to the day.

Her passing away hit me very hard and I was upset with the Lord. I wanted to fetch my aunt to live with me and had hoped my business will pick up and I can get us a place, but it did not happen the way I prayed it would.  Her funeral was on the 25th.

A process of mourning and seeking understanding started.

14, 21 June 2019 – They that wait upon the Lord

On the 14th Ayanda Nenemba was quote Isaiah 40:31 – But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Later that evening I was watching Hacksaw Ridge and in it the character of Desmond Doss quotes Isaiah 40:31 – wait upon the Lord, soar on wings like eagles.

On the 21st Angus Buchan was also quoting Isaiah 40:31 and reiterating that we need to spend time with God.  The same insert was repeated a bit later that morning.

17 June 2019 – The water will not overtake you

This morning my friend Dmitri of Cape Pulpit spontaneously said: the water will not overtake you, the fire will not burn you.

Later that afternoon Ayanda was quoting Isaiah 43:1 – 6 saying that when we go through the water, it will not overtake you and when we go through the fire, we will not get burnt. Do not be afraid.

Isa 43:1 But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life.  Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you. I will say to the north, Give up, and to the south, Do not withhold; bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the end of the earth, everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.”

27 June 2019 – Frisco is with me 19 years

27 June 2000 was when my beloved cat Frisco entered into my life. He was not a baby kitten, around four months old, when he left his temporary home at the SPCA in Vereeniging.

One vet wrote his birthdate as 16 February 2000 – so Frisco shared a birthday with my aunt that just passed away. However, I celebrate him on the 27th of June each year.

It is only by God’s grace that he has become this old and I pray he will be spared a few more years.

27 June 2019 – When Lord, when? 11 is a month, not a year

I did not note the day, but wrote it in here in my diary. With my aunt passing away and knowing God told me that 2019 is my year, standing at the kettle to make tea, I balled and shook my fists in sheer frustration and earnestly asked God:  “When, Lord, when?!?!”

He immediately reminded me of my mom’s passing away date: 010109 = 11.  I replied:  “But Lord, we are nowhere near a year which contains the number 11”.  Then He said:  “11 is not a year, it is a month”.

Then it dawned on me: the answer to my “when Lord, when” is 2019.11.  I wrote it down.

My eye kept catching 9.11 and in the coming weeks I prayed about it.

28, 29 June 2019 – God keeps His promises

On the 28th I created my Happy Sabbath message, being Genesis 9:14, 15 about God giving Noah a rainbow and making a promise.

On the 29th on Radio Pulpit, Carolus and Lente were talking about Noah and the rainbow and how God is faithful to keep His promises.

29 June 2019 – Honour the process

On this day I downloaded a sermon by Steven Furtick regarding honoring the process and not cutting corners.

If we honor the process, God will honor the promise.

After that, John McArther was also talking about honoring the process and praying for the right things.

I realised that, as much as I wanted to rush God, I had to honor His timing and process and faithfully wait for His promises to come into fulfilment.

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