2 July 2017 – An abortion

As a young woman, my mother made the terrible choice of having an abortion. She and my father had come together before marriage and she fell pregnant. Out of fear, she decided to have an abortion. I did not discuss it with her much – I was sadly very blasé about it. But after my parents’ passing, I was forced to think about their lives and my own and everyone I loved and cared for. My dad was an activist against abortion and my mother was torn about it for the rest of her life. Looking back, I think this caused a major dent in their marriage, years down the line. I never understood or had the knowledge on how to handle this caliber of pain that someone is going through. But over many years of praying and learning, I have gained insight into this and heartfelt sympathy to those in need of kind words. This night I lay in my bed and I had the urge to speak forgiveness out loud. I forgave my mother for having aborted my sibling. Though my mother has passed on and cannot hear my forgiveness, I still did it for my own sake. If I could have re-winded time, I would have told her that I forgive her, while she was alive. I will see both my parents in heaven when the time comes and there will be no more pain, no more regrets, no more unforgiveness, no more brokenness.  It will be perfect.

10 July 2017 – Happy birthday … on (inter)national radio!

Radio Pulpit allows listeners to wish a person happy birthday every weekday. It is done of a ‘first come, first serve’ basis. For years I wanted to wish my sister, Jessica, happy birthday via Radio Pulpit, but I just never seemed to be first in line for it.

The afternoon before her birthday, presenter Ayanda was talking about sisters. I sent her a message of what was on my heart:

2017.07.10 - text message

Next thing I know, controller Mpho called me and asked for my sister’s number. I was surprised-amazed. I knew they were up to something, but I was not sure exactly what.

After a while, Mpho called me again and said he could not get a hold of my sister. I gave my brother-in-law’s number, though I was not sure if he was working night shift.  Mpho told me to hold.  He tried the numbers again, but could not get a hold of anyone.

The below audio clip is the conversation that took place. I recorded it.

 

God is so gracious! He hears the desires of our hearts.  He GIVES us the desires of our hearts.  He is faithful in the big things and the small.

14, 15, 17 July 2017 – Job & Healing

I am not sure why the story of Job kept popping up regularly during this week. On the 15th, I noticed that it was a month short of 4 years since my best friend M had a stroke during an operation to remove a brain tumor.  The day before the operation, she came to see me and told me that God was continually pointing out to her, the story of Job.  I kept feeling like I had to read the entire book of Job again – all 42 chapters.  I started listening to it on audio up to halfway, but abandoned it there.  I still need to read it …

20 July 2017 – Get rid of baggage

Liesel Krause Wiid was sharing her weekly bit on Radio Pulpit at around 07:25. She was talking about finalising outstanding issues and getting rid of baggage.  Suddenly I remembered my dream of February that I have to go to Welkom, to the nursery school I attended as a little girl.  I have to forgive and set free and get rid of baggage.  Again I felt the urgency to get it done.  Months had passed and I still have not done it yet.

26 July 2017 – satan hinders

At around 18:30 on Radio Pulpit, a preacher was talking about Paul writing to the Thessalonians that satan was hindering him to go to them (1 Thessalonians 2:18). Again the Welkom issue came up and the urgency that I had to go, intensified. For months I have been praying and trying to figure out how to get there, without success. I have a very old cat (18 in human years and 88 in cat-years) that I do not like to leave alone overnight and I was looking for a cat-sitter to feed him and take care of him, while I was away. I could not find anyone suitable and going for the day at the time, was not possible. Also having just started at a new job, I did not have as much free time as before to go. Regardless, that I had to go was URGENT and I prayed for God’s help and to not let satan hinder me any longer.

11 August 2017 – God keeps His Word

There are times that I feel despair and a bit lost. I pray and pray and it feels like nothing changes. I am often reminded of Joseph having been thrown in the pit and then raised to the palace and how many years he patiently had to wait on God. I am also often reminded that God’s Word is Truth. What He says He’ll do, He does. Not according to our calendars and watches, but according to His. On this specific day, a preacher on Radio Pulpit was talking about 2 Kings 7:1 – 16. It also reminded me, as God often does, that His ways and thoughts, are not ours. He often does things in completely unexpected ways.

2Ki 7:1 But Elisha said, “Hear the word of the LORD: thus says the LORD, Tomorrow about this time a seah of fine flour shall be sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley for a shekel, at the gate of Samaria.”

2Ki 7:2 Then the captain on whose hand the king leaned said to the man of God, “If the LORD himself should make windows in heaven, could this thing be?” But he said, “You shall see it with your own eyes, but you shall not eat of it.”

2Ki 7:3 Now there were four men who were lepers at the entrance to the gate. And they said to one another, “Why are we sitting here until we die?

2Ki 7:4 If we say, ‘Let us enter the city,’ the famine is in the city, and we shall die there. And if we sit here, we die also. So now come, let us go over to the camp of the Syrians. If they spare our lives we shall live, and if they kill us we shall but die.”

2Ki 7:5 So they arose at twilight to go to the camp of the Syrians. But when they came to the edge of the camp of the Syrians, behold, there was no one there.

2Ki 7:6 For the Lord had made the army of the Syrians hear the sound of chariots and of horses, the sound of a great army, so that they said to one another, “Behold, the king of Israel has hired against us the kings of the Hittites and the kings of Egypt to come against us.”

2Ki 7:7 So they fled away in the twilight and abandoned their tents, their horses, and their donkeys, leaving the camp as it was, and fled for their lives.

2Ki 7:8 And when these lepers came to the edge of the camp, they went into a tent and ate and drank, and they carried off silver and gold and clothing and went and hid them. Then they came back and entered another tent and carried off things from it and went and hid them.

2Ki 7:9 Then they said to one another, “We are not doing right. This day is a day of good news. If we are silent and wait until the morning light, punishment will overtake us. Now therefore come; let us go and tell the king’s household.”

2Ki 7:10 So they came and called to the gatekeepers of the city and told them, “We came to the camp of the Syrians, and behold, there was no one to be seen or heard there, nothing but the horses tied and the donkeys tied and the tents as they were.”

2Ki 7:11 Then the gatekeepers called out, and it was told within the king’s household.

2Ki 7:12 And the king rose in the night and said to his servants, “I will tell you what the Syrians have done to us. They know that we are hungry. Therefore they have gone out of the camp to hide themselves in the open country, thinking, ‘When they come out of the city, we shall take them alive and get into the city.'”

2Ki 7:13 And one of his servants said, “Let some men take five of the remaining horses, seeing that those who are left here will fare like the whole multitude of Israel who have already perished. Let us send and see.”

2Ki 7:14 So they took two horsemen, and the king sent them after the army of the Syrians, saying, “Go and see.”

2Ki 7:15 So they went after them as far as the Jordan, and behold, all the way was littered with garments and equipment that the Syrians had thrown away in their haste. And the messengers returned and told the king.

2Ki 7:16 Then the people went out and plundered the camp of the Syrians. So a seah of fine flour was sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley for a shekel, according to the word of the LORD.

25, 27 August 2017 – Joseph and Potiphar

On 25 August I was watching a movie that I was given, about Joseph and Potiphar. It reminded me to be patient and to wait on the Lord.  On 27 August Johan Carstens was talking about Joseph and Potiphar on his show on Radio Pulpit.  It again confirmed what God was telling me to be patient and to trust Him wholeheartedly.

27, 28 August 2017 – Job again

The night of 27 August, the story of Job came up again and then again the following morning at 06:26 on Radio Pulpit when Uncle Angus Buchan spoke about Job.

31 August 2017 – A strange dream

On 31 August I had a very strange dream. One of those that feel so realistic.  I do not watch a lot of sci-fi movies.  In fact, I very seldom watch TV and specifically not secular TV or movies.

I dreamt I was captured and held in a concentration camp. Our captors were not human.  Their footprints in the ground had long heels with three toes pointing forward, almost like a chicken’s.  In my dream, I had escaped from this concentration camp and was fleeing for my life, looking for other Christians.  I found Christians in an abandoned building and they were monitoring the streets for the enemy.   The room had huge glass windows that could only look outward, but not inward – like one-way glass.

The rules were that no one was allowed to give away our position unless it was discussed and checked out first and decided upon that it was safe to do so. A young lady arrived at the building unexpectedly because an old lady in the group had given her our whereabouts.

I kept having a nagging feeling that something was very wrong. I insisted on searching the young lady from head to toe, completely stripped. In my dream, I had a huge urgency about it. I also was very serious about searching her, not caring whether she was naked and complaining about it. I made her lie on her tummy and was going to search her buttocks. (Yes, it seems gruesome, but in my dream, I was very determined to keep the group safe). The girl exclaimed: no you can’t look there! But I did nonetheless. Right in the fold, I found a strip, about 2 inches long. It was a bug. In my dream, I told the group that our position had been compromised and that we have to pack up in a hurry and run. The old lady and the girl were banished from the group and had to find their own way. Disobedience could not be tolerated.

We started packing and I was worried about all the things I still wanted to take with. Luxuries and not necessities.  I felt immense anxiety that I still had too many things holding me back.

Then I woke. I felt very disturbed by this dream, as I have had many dreams similar to this.  Many dreams of running and hiding for my life. Dreams where chaos reigns and dogs, which may have been someone’s pets at one stage, had become wild and were chasing children to still their hunger. I’ve had another very significant dream in the past, also of aliens coming to persecute specifically Christians and we having to pack up hurriedly and run. I remember in that dream I was panicking cause I wanted to take a lot more with me, but time and space did not allow for it.  I looked at everything I owned and said to the person with me that I will lock up as best I can, but knowing they will break open and raid everything and that I will lose everything I have.  I also felt a huge urgency to stop wondering what to take, as the airplane in which we had to flee, was going to leave without me.  Another very worrying dream that I had one night, was of Christians being lined up and shot with machine guns.  I did not see them and how they were shot as I was standing on the side of the line-up and there was a wall and the end and iron bars (like a jail’s) at the back.  The impact of the bullets was so bad, that their flesh and blood formed little piles through the open parts of the bars. I dreamt that I was looking for one of my best friends, but I could not find him and I had a feeling that I will never see him again. Not in this life.

These dreams are very disconcerting and I am very upset and sad after such a dream. I do not know if this is in any form an indication of what is to come or simply what I dread might be coming.  I sometimes speak to Christians who have similar dreams.  I only share this, as I have to share my full testimony.

At this point I would like to make mention that I do not believe in aliens. I think it is propaganda and I think the force behind aliens, are in fact demons.   I have never seen an alien or a demon and I don’t wish to either. I believe God has protected me from that. But I do believe that demons are behind a lot of this. They are fallen angels and servants of satan.  They work for the kingdom of darkness.

9, 11 September 2017 – Train up a child in the ways of the Lord

On Radio Pulpit – Filling the gap – the presenter read the verse Proverbs 22:6 – Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it. Again two days later, on the morning show at 05:40 a different presenter quoted the same verse.  I asked the Lord if there was a child that He wanted me to concern myself over.  A few days later, a gorgeous little Muslim boy named Adam, crossed my path.  His mother had left to marry another man.  She wanted nothing to do with him and abandoned him completely.  He is so hungry for love, attention and acceptance.  Sadly, I could not see him for several weeks now, but I hope I will get to spend some time with him again, soon.

21 September 2017 – Another alien dream

I woke at around 02:30 from another dream about aliens trying to kill Christians. I do not remember any of the details of it and I did not note any details in my diary.

23 September 2017 – Jupiter exits Virgo

On this date, Jupiter – dubbed “The King Star” – exited the Virgo constallation after making a nine month elipse in it from January 2017. Nine months is the time it takes from conception to childbirth. There were many theories about this and some people felt there was a correlation between this and the Virgin in the Book of Revelations 12.


25 September 2017 – Unsafe 

I was given a teaching by Dr. Michelle K Strydom. She is a Christian doctor who shares her knowledge of the physical connection with the spiritual and emotional parts of our being. This is a 22 part teaching of about an hour long each. Her teachings have explained many aspects which I have wondered by and I truly believe her work is Holy Spirit inspired and guided by God’s Word. In one of the teachings, she voiced a feeling which I have felt against my mother for many years but did not know how to put into words. I did not feel safe and protected by my mother. It is also what I had forgiven my mother for in February.

7, 8 October 2017 – Let us go across to the other side

In another of Dr. Michelle Strydom’s teachings, she was talking about Jesus and the disciples going across to the other side as found in these two parallel verses:

Mar 4:35 On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, “Let us go across to the other side.”

Luk 8:22 One day he got into a boat with his disciples, and he said to them, “Let us go across to the other side of the lake.” So they set out,

Though her teaching was about the man possessed by a legion of demons, Holy Spirit pointed out to me the part of ‘let us go across to the other side’.

As always, the Lord confirms what He points out to me a second or third time.  The following day the sermon on Radio Pulpit explicitly referred to the same piece of Jesus telling the disciples that they must go across to the other side.  The preacher was saying that going to the other side with Jesus, requires a person to be bold and fearless of persecution, danger and rejection. To reach out to people with the Gospel in areas where one would normally not venture. The people of the Gerasenes were considered filthy and upon a visitor’s return there, they would have to be purified. That is the extent to which Jesus expects us to risk ourselves for the spreading of the Gospel. He further mentioned that Jesus stilled the storm.

17 October 2017 – North Korea threatens with nuclear war

The news bulletin mentioned that North Korea threatened to start a nuclear war. In the same bulletin, mention was made that Zuma’s cabinet shuffle of March 2017, was an attempt to speed up the building of a nuclear plant in the Western Cape, next to Koeberg.

The link is an IOL article on the topic:

https://www.iol.co.za/capeargus/news/another-nuclear-plant-for-cape-town-11632835

3 November 2017 – Don’t procrastinate

At around 16:40 on Radio Pulpit presenter Ayanda was talking about procrastination and how we should not leave issues outstanding.  I sent her a Whatsapp about my outstanding Welkom-issue.

She did a prayer for me – I heard most of it but missed recording a large part of it, in two different recordings.

After that day, I made an earnest effort to get to Welkom. Within a week, the arrangements were made to go to Welkom on the 17th of November.

10 November 2017 – Rastafarian (PG)

As it goes in the Christian walk, when a person seeks to come into obedience to God, the devil always wants to find a way to scare us from the right path. Two nights in a row, two very strange occurrences happened consecutively. Please note that these are very sensitive topics and it is not easy to write this, however, I have to write my testimony.

On this specific night I dreamt that I was lying down, on my back and had just woken up.  I lifted my head and noticed that I had male genital parts instead of the usual female parts that I was born with.  Immediately I was concerned and sat upright.
These parts were not Caucasian in color but were considerably darker, yet not completely black.  And it was filthy and very dusty.  I dreamt that I sat upright and thought:  this is seriously wrong.  And in my dream I prayed:  God, what is happening?  Why is this so?
In my dream, I let the penis lay on my hand and while looking at it, I thought: this is a real problem because I am a woman and I don’t need or want this. I also dreamt that I had thought of taking a garden spade and just chopping the whole lot off.  But immediately it came to mind that I might sever the arteries in my thighs and bleed to death and it would certainly leave an ugly scar and not resolve my problem.  I dreamt that there has to be a better way out of this problem.
At this point, I would like to mention that never in my life, have I ever looked at such images. So somewhere I must have seen this for my mind to conjure it up. Therefore, I suspect that as a child an African man must have revealed his manhood to me and I suspect that it may have been at that créche.

Further, in my dream, I dropped the penis, giving a sigh of frustration and looking down at it. It became longer and longer and then it disappeared and instead turned into what looked like meat (tenderised steak) which was spiralling downward and getting larger. It protruded from my vagina and became larger still. The next moment I was standing next to a white bathtub and this ‘piece of tenderised meat’ was covering the entire tub and underneath it, I could hear an angry man’s voice. The meat was bulging in places, as the man tried to get out from under it.

Finally, the man got out and was standing before me. He was very angry, talking very loud and angry words that I could not understand. His finger was pointed in the air at the height of his face – and not pointing to me – and his face was very stern. He was a Rastafarian man, with dreadlocks but they were not long. It was in a bob style, the same length all around, just above the shoulders. His complexion was considerably lighter and he had a moustache that went down on the sides, but no beard. I did not see the details of his eyes.

As he was angrily talking, it was as though he was being zoomed out. He was being moved further and further away – he got smaller and smaller and his voice softer and softer as the distance between us got bigger. Eventually, he disappeared completely and I felt completely at peace.

Without seeing it, but just knowing that my body was restored, I was completely at peace and I had the notion that something evil was now removed out of my life.  I slept peacefully for the rest of the night.
Again at this point, I would like to mention that I suspect that some spirit of lust was hanging around me my entire life, because of something that happened at that créche.  This spirit had me in bondage and brought about many failures in my life, including failed relationships – rejecting men’s authority.  This being the reason why God had placed it so urgently on my heart to go and forgive so that I may be set free.

11 November 2017 – Something touched me (PG)

The next day I felt very adamant to go to Welkom and get these issues sorted out.
This night, something strange and scary happened to me, that has never happened to me before.
If I could rewind time, there is something I would redo in my life and that is to have saved myself sexually for marriage. It would have been a long wait, but worth it. Unfortunately, I did not know better and in a world that confuses sex with love and making it so readily available via numerous media platforms, parental absenteeism and lack of Godly education, for the most part, it has become increasingly difficult to stay pure.
As a single person, I have not been sexually active for well over a year.  I have avoided relationships and have not gone in search of ‘love’.  Because in this world, ‘love’ always turns out to be connected to sex and I was not up for it anymore.  I want real love.  The kind that is willing to wait for marriage before having sex.  That is willing to commit to a marriage that is of God.  The Mark 10:9 marriage that God joins together.  But with my life as broken as it was, I made many wrong decisions.  I hold on to the fact that God is repairing this broken Stradivarius to make a beautiful sound in this world that will help many people.
I am not sure at which time of the night it was, but I woke up suddenly feeling very aroused.  I was very tired and still half asleep, yet half awake.  And very aroused. I had no reason to feel that way and in my drowsiness, I remember being somewhat baffled about it.
The next moment something was applying firm pressure to my mons pubis (pubic bone).  Four times and equally separated from each other and on exactly the same spot each time.  No other areas of my body were touched. The pressure was of such a nature that it caused me to naturally reach a climax. I fell asleep again straight away.
When I woke in the morning, I remembered what had happened and I grew very fearful.  I tried to logically explain what had happened.  Perhaps it was my cat climbing over me – he sleeps with me on my bed.
Firstly, he is very old and in the last few years, he finds it easier to walk around me rather than over me due to instability in his spine. He prefers level surfaces. Secondly, there is NO WAY he could climb over me, placing all four his paws on exactly the same place every time he put his paw down. And where were the other three paws? Because I did not feel them and I would have had to feel them – he cannot give such broad steps. He would have had to put at least one of his other paws down somewhere else on my body. I’ve had my cat for 18 years, I know what it feels like when he climbs over me and it was nothing like that. And in 18 years I have never seen him hover on one foot, with the other three in mid-air putting each paw down on the very same place. Thirdly, I was vaguely aware that I was not alone. Despite being very tired and half asleep/half awake, I had a sense of some other presence being there, especially when the pressure was being applied. Fourthly, I was not dreaming it. Though exhausted, I knew I was awake and not dreaming.
So the logical explanation I was hoping for, was not an option.  I came to the conclusion that perhaps the Rastafarian of the night before, had something to do with this. Out of the blue, I remembered a movie I saw as a child based on the real-life story of a woman who had been raped by a demon. The movie is called The Entity which was filmed in 1981.
I do not believe that I was raped, as I experienced the pressure externally and not internally.  That I was touched by something, is a certainty.  I am a light sleeper and know when I am awake or sleeping and dreaming.  Even dreams that seem very real are discerned as dreams.
I would also like to mention that I have never dabbled in witchcraft or anything related, to invite unwanted visitors.  Unless it was innocently done through words spoken unknowingly.  I am convinced that this had to do with something that happened in my past, as a little girl and my going to Welkom to set someone free.  I have never ever experienced anything like this before or after (to date) and hope that I never ever will again.
At some point I wanted to cancel the whole trip to Welkom out of fear, but the Holy Spirit insisted that I go and that I must not be afraid. That night – the night after being touched – I slept with my Audio Bible playing. I did not want any more unwelcome visitors. I slept undisturbed.

17 November 2017 – Going to Welkom

Finally the day came.

I caught a lift with friends of mine and they dropped me off at Doorn Créche.  I went inside and introduced myself to the principal and explained to her why I was there.  The ladies there were very interested in my story and wished me the best.

I walked around the school twice, praying over the school and the children. The playground used to be smaller – it was expanded on the right-hand side. At the furthest corner, I kept getting a feeling that something happened in that corner. There is a tree in the furthest corner that blocks the view from the classrooms’ side. A feeling arose that something happened to me in that very corner and it was as though my memory was being jogged. But I do not remember anything.

Tree at Creche

At some point, I had a glimpse of myself at that créche. I was wearing a dress and sitting on my haunches at the fence in that furthest corner. It was a very brief glimpse like someone opened a door on my past and quickly shut it again.

I then remembered that boys from the school across the road often called us to the fence. They were generally naughty boys. And sometimes African men who walked past would call us to the fence. I suspect that an African man may have called me to that corner and exposed himself to me sexually. I cannot remember and I am not sure whether God will one day reveal it to me or not, but I trust Him, He knows best.
After walking around the school, I sat on a tractor tyre and took a few deep breaths.  I almost forgot what I had gone to do and Holy Spirit gently reminded me:  Forgive, set free.
With almost a shock, I remembered that was the objective of this outing.
Out loud I said:  Lord, whoever did whatever to me, I choose to forgive them.  I choose to set them free and I too want to be free.
At that moment, in my mind’s eye, I saw my sister, Jessica, standing before me holding both my hands, our heads bowed and she was praying for me.
I felt an immense urgency and I tried to call her, but I could not get a hold of her. She had to pick me up at the créche. She also attended the same créche when I did. Finally, she arrived, but it was break time. The children were all around us and we picked them each up and hugged them and when we were done with round number one, we would hug them for a second round.  We both love children.
In all the confusion and noise and rush, I forgot to ask her to pray for me.  We rushed to our meeting and the day continued as per usual.
The trip back home was good and I did not feel any different.
When I got home, I called Jess to let her know we were home safe and to thank her and Linda for their efforts with our meeting.
Then Jess said to me:  “I did not do what God showed me to do”.
Immediately my mood dropped.  It had taken me nine months and seventeen days to get obedient about this, now there was still something else outstanding.  I asked her what it was.
Jess:  I have to pray for you.
Me:  Pray for me now, over the phone.
Jess:  No, I have to hold both your hands.  God showed me that I have to stand before you, hold both your hands and pray for you.
Exactly the picture that God showed me, was what He had shown her.
I am not sure what she has to pray for, but I believe God will give her the words at the time.  It is months later now and I still have to get back to Welkom for that.

18 – 25 November 2017 – God’s Bloomin’ Message

The next day was the Sabbath and I went to church.  The annual congregants’ meeting was announced and the Holy Spirit nudged me to go.

As I am not yet a member of the church, I decided not to attend the meeting, but the Holy Spirit was adamant that I do.

I went home, resolute that I will not be attending the meeting.  About fifteen minutes before I would have been too late for the meeting, it was like a fire was made under my backside.  I jumped up, brushed my hair, fixed my face, got into my car and rushed off to church.
Pastor Peter read to us from Jeremiah 29:11 – 13 and his very explicit words were:  bloom where you are planted1.
Holy Spirit said:  did you hear that?
Me:  Yes Lord.
In my heart, I knew that something had changed.  But I was still a little skeptical.
So God made sure I got His Bloomin’ message.  In the week that followed, the word BLOOM, or different variants of it, appeared several times.
On the Sunday, Rick Moser was giving his teaching over Radio Pulpit and he too read exactly Jeremiah 29:11 – 132.  He said that we are to represent God where we are (in Afrikaans) and it made me think of:  bloom where you are planted.
That Wednesday Johann Els on Radio Pulpit said Pastor Peter’s exact words:  Bloom where you are planted.
On Thursday I received a message from Feelgood Health about pet care and the title was Grooming and Blooming.
The following Saturday – on Radio Pulpit – John McArthur was teaching from Ezekiel and he was talking about when the Israelites “came into full bloom”.
That evening I was talking to my friend Daniel about bees.  He is a beekeeper.  I told him that I am going to sleep, it was late and I told him goodnight.  His reply was zoom bloom!
That is not even something to say, yet God put it in his heart to say.
I was convinced:  this was God’s Bloomin’ message for my life.  This late bloomer’s time to bloom has come.

19, 20, 25, 27, 28 November 2017 – Have faith, believe, trust the Lord

On the 19th I was listening to one of Ellen G White’s narrated writings.  Holy Spirit pointed out to me a part that I heard:  Believe in God, believe also in Me (John 14:1)

On the 20th Wynand Rossouw repeated the exact same verse in the morning show on Radio Pulpit:  Believe in God, believe also in Me. (2:00)

On the 25th Johan C’s sermon at church was about faith and he also mentioned how Enoch walked in faith.

Again on the 27th Wynand Rossouw repeated the verse:  Let not your heart be troubled (believe in God) believe also in Me. (11:40)

The cross of Calvary was quite prominent on this day and that nothing can separate us from the love of God.

Again on the 28th in the morning, Enoch’s walk of faith was repeated by Fanie Coetzer on Radio Pulpit.

3, 4 December 2017 – My thoughts are not your thoughts

On Sunday 3 December 2017 I was listening to Radio Pulpit. I did not record the time, nor the program or presenter, but Holy Spirit pointed out what was said on the radio:  “My thoughts are not your thoughts”.

Isaiah 55:8 – For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.

Again on the 4th, the same verse popped up in a Whatsapp message.

At that point, I had many questions and I was trying to figure out the way forward and what God wanted me to do. It felt like I got to a dead-end each time until this verse reminded me that we have the mind of Christ. Often the answer is completely different from our thinking. It is in the manner of discernment, whether we discern spiritually or naturally. (1 Corinthians 2:12 onward).

6 December 2017 – Watchman on the tower reminder

At 21:30 on 6 December I was listening to Radio Pulpit and Professor van Schalkwyk was teaching from Ezekiel. Specifically Ezekiel 33:17:  The watchman on the tower.

I remembered that it forms part of my calling and that this was a reminder to be more diligent.

9 December 2017 – Called for a purpose

We have all been called to a purpose and we need to take time and get quiet to hear from the Lord what our purpose is.

It reminded me of my calling and to hold steadfast to every word of God. What He says, will be so for He is the Amen (Revelation 3:14).

14 December 2017 – Disobedience leads to suffering

On this day, I had a very distinct warning from the Holy Spirit to put petrol in my motorbike, but I did not listen. I decided to take a chance and ride toward work and put petrol in close to work.

The exact distance it would have taken me to the nearest petrol station is what I traveled in the opposite direction when my bike stopped. Upset with myself for not listening, I sent a message to work to let them know that I will be a bit late. I sent another message for someone to come help me. None of the messages went through. And in this crime-ridden country, people simply do not stop to help each other anymore.

I prayed and asked the Lord to forgive my disobedience. As I stood there, in a semi-panic, I tried to think of the best way to handle my situation.  I hit a complete blank.  All that came up was:  keep praying.  I did.

Suddenly I remembered to switch my bike’s tank to reserve. I started it again and made for the nearest gas station.  About a kilometer before it, my bike stopped again – completely empty.  I pushed it all the way to the gas station.  It is a heavy bike, a Yamaha XTZ 125.  My lungs were burning, muscles ached and I was late for work.

Disobedience to the Word of God leads to suffering. Throughout my studies of the Word, up to the book of Acts where I am currently at, could I find disobedience being rewarded with a blessing. On the contrary, disobedience carries negative consequences. Often even after repentance. However, because of God’s encompassing grace, mercy and enduring love, He will always forgive a truly repentant heart. God can not go against Himself. Let’s suppose God does not forgive a repentant sinner, then the work of Jesus on the cross would be nullified. God has to forgive a sinner that comes to repentance and who strives for holiness as this is the entire purpose of Jesus being the holy and perfect slain lamb.  And it is not as though God does this against His will.  Contrary. He wants all people to be saved and come to the knowledge of Christ. (1 Timothy 2:4) and no sin ever exists that could and cannot be covered by the blood of Christ. No matter what a person has done, if they are truly repentant and believe in their hearts that Jesus had paid their debt by dying on the cross and being raised again and accept Him as their Redeemer, their sins will be forgiven and they will be called children of the Most High.

16 December 2017 – Dropping off audio Bibles

My car needs a bit of work done (cam belt service which is a major) and for the most part I do not dare leave the Vaal Triangle with it. So I asked Marusharne if we could go to Heidelberg with her car to drop off audio Bibles at Highway Ministries. These are Bibles that I downloaded for free from Bible sites and included the Chichewa (Malawian), Arabic and English Bibles. It was a public holiday and I was not keen to be on the roads, but it was the only day available before the December holidays started. She agreed but insisted that I drive.

The drive there was without event. We met the people, took a picture and head home.  Not far out of Heidelberg a car in front of me wanted to turn right and had to wait for oncoming traffic.  The old BMW behind me also slowed down to almost stopping.  After the car in front of me turned, I geared down and pulled away.  I said to M:  I sure hope nobody comes from behind who is not going to stop.

My words were hardly uttered, when I saw in the rearview mirror, a white SUV swerving from behind the BMW. Its backside swerved to the far left, then again to the far right and back again.  I said to M:  he’s going to roll his car, his going to roll his car!  I put my foot down hard on the petrol to get away.  At the speed at which the SUV was going and its close proximity to us, I calculated that if any traction hit the wheels, it would have started rolling, become airborne and landed right on top of us.  Hence my desire to move away as soon as possible.

I checked the road and then the rearview. The road again and the rearview.  I could see that the driver of the SUV had gained control of his car, but was still driving on the gravel side of the road, at our pace for some distance.  I thanked God for having kept us safe.

The driver then moved over onto the tar and passed the BMW and us, indicating to me to pull over. I refused and continued driving.  They pulled over and the BMW also pulled over.  I had the right of passage and acted as I had to when I had to stop for the car in front of me, which he also had to do, but failed to.  I do not have to stop to explain that to him.

All the while, M was reclined in her seat, feet on the dash, vaguely phased by the goings-on. It is how she is: always calm in the knowledge that God is with us. I always marvel at that trait of hers.

The SUV came flying past us again and upon passing, the passenger stuck their middle finger out the window at me.

I thought: you fools!  Today your lives had been spared and you don’t even know to thank God for it!

My last research indicated that South Africa has the highest death number on its roads in the world. More or less the same amount of people die on our roads, as are murdered in this country.  Yet we hold a prayer day for the murders but not for the deaths on our roads and for people to drive better.

For a country that claims to be mostly Christian, most people drive as though the devil sits behind them. No safe distances behind the vehicle in front, high speeds, on their cell phones, driving under the influence of alcohol and/or narcotics, reckless. Godless.

13 – the rest of December 2017 – A wilderness message

Around 21:00 on the 13th of December, I was sitting in front of my laptop.  I can not remember what I was busy with, but I suddenly had a very clear picture that appeared in my mind’s eye.  It was very vivid and very brief.  It was like a movie that played in front of me, but it was very short and very impactful.  Several images appeared and it was a major download of information.

At first I saw sheep scattered on a wilderness hill. I saw a church leader trying to gather the sheep, but as soon as he had some herded together, a few wayward sheep would run off in a different direction.  The shepherd was exhausted.  I saw a specific person, but also understood it to be applicable to most church leaders.

I experienced myself standing as an onlooker. Passive.  Doing nothing to help.  It dawned on me that though church leaders are called to shepherd flocks, it is not only up to them to lead people to Christ.  It is the duty of every Christian to act out The Great Commission as Jesus gave it in Matthew 28:19, 20 – Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you.  And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

A clear picture of how we “love” people also appeared. Jesus physically touched people in a loving manner.  He touched the leppars, the children, the old, the lame, the deaf, the cripple.  He touched, He touched, He touched!  In this world, there are many people void of the slightest touch, who crave a hug, or to have their hand squeezed in assurance.  I felt extremely guilty as I avoid touching people too much.  And I know I am not the only one guilty of this.

As I am typing this, on the 9th of May 2018, two things came up in my mind (yes, I am far behind in my duty of capturing my testimony and trying to get it done as I should).

Firstly, it came to my mind that power from the Holy Spirit flows through us and when we physically touch other people, that power flows into them. I was reminded of the woman who touched the garment of our Lord Jesus and how the power had flowed out of Him, into her and healed her.  I am also reminded of the Word instructing the elders to anoint and lay their hands on the sick.  Also of people having to be touched (hands laid on them) in order to receive the Holy Spirit.

Surely, when God demonstrates or indicates something to us three times, He must mean business about it.

I was further reminded of a message my sister, Jessica had sent me on the 5th of May, a few days ago.  I had asked her numerous times about praying for me, as God had instructed us on 17 November 2017.  On several occassions I told her that He instructed us both and that we are being disobedient.  On this day, 5 May, she sent me a voice note that we are indeed disobedient and that when she prays for me, she has to touch me/hold both my hands.  She very distinctly told me that God had showed her that He requires her to be obedient in touching people when she prays for them.

I also saw that the way “church” was being done and that it was going to change completely. It appeared like a major reformation. Seeing as it was 500 years since the last reformation, it would not surprise me if God was going to do a new thing. I experienced that God had raised up pioneers (the word pioneer very specifically came up) to head how He wants the church to go.

There was also a message for a specific person. Choices that he will have to make, but a very specific choice that will hugely impact his life.  When these choices will come before him, I do not know.  His options were 40 days in the wilderness, which is God’s will for his life.  Or 40 years in the wilderness, which is not God’s will for his life.

In obedience I typed up everything I had just experience and sent a mail to him. Some of it did not apply to him, but I typed it up in any way so I do not forget all of the details. It was late by the time I finished.

Soon after sending the mail, the devil planted doubt in my heart. I said:  Lord, did I see and hear right?  Did I not make a mistake?

The fear of man crept in again. But GOD in His WONDERFUL glory set my mind at ease in the days that followed.  In those days, many of the things I had seen and heard, was confirmed and the word ‘wilderness’ and Israelites in the desert/wilderness popped up several times.

On 14 December Liesl Krause Wiid had an insert on Radio Pulpit at 07:25 and she spoke of the Israelites complaining in the desert which I took as wilderness.

On 17 December on Radio Pulpit at 10:22 Werner Swart had his insert “Koninkryksgedagtes uit Argentinië” and he was talking about Paul who said he planted the seed, Apollos gave it water and God gave the growth.  Werner very specifically used the word pioneer, but in Afrikaans – pionier.

On 18 December at 11:15 on Radio Pulpit, Joyce Meyer’s insert spoke of how we overthink matters because we are afraid of hurting people when we should say what we need to say and how this may cause us to fall into disobedience and a lack of trust in the Lord. I then knew that I did the right thing in sending that mail.

On 21 December Liesel Krause Wiid’s exact message was repeated. What caught my attention on this repeat was that we are to make our needs known and to ask in prayer with thanksgiving and supplication.

On 22 December at 05:55 on Radio Pulpit, the presenter of Bybel vir Vandag indicated that we must not just serve inside our churches, but also outside. Specifically outside so all peoples may be reached.

On the same day at 06:15 on Radio Pulpit, Angus Buchan’s insert spoke of hypocrisy in the church and how all churches must stand for Christ.

Further on the same day, later in the afternoon on Pulpit, presenter Ayanda said that we are to trust God’s timing. We must ask with prayer & supplication.

On 25 December on Pulpit at 09:50 the presenter said that we are to trust God, He keeps His promises.

On the same day on Pulpit at 11:10, Derek Prince’s insert spoke of reaching out and not to let things stand in the way of what God asks us to do. We are to gird our loins.

Just after that, another insert of Joyce Meyer came up – she was talking about the Israelites murmuring in the wilderness and not trusting God. We are to trust God.

On 26 December I was watching Lee Strobel’s movie “A case for Christ” based on his book. It is portrayed how God was going to take out his heart of stone and give him a heart of flesh.

On 27 December on Pulpit around 08:30 Berni Dymet of Christianity Worx’s insert also spoke of Ezekiel and the heart of stone being replaced by a heart of flesh. He also said that it may feel long for God’s blessing to come but that God has a plan for our lives.

In the afternoon, I was listening to a teaching by doctor Michelle Strydom in which she explicitly said that we must be doers of the Word.

On 29 December Pulpit News made mention of a man rescuing a drowning boy at Wilderness in the Cape.

31 December on Pulpit in the morning Pieter van Wyk speaks of the Israelites on the point of moving out of Egypt and that God was with them and how He is with us also.

Later, at 12:20 Rick Moser pointed out that we are to make the right choices.

At 13:50 Murray Louw of “So stuur ek julle” spoke of a new strategy and that we are to do God’s commands.

I do listen to the radio, sermons and teachings a lot and I read a lot. I hear many words in a day.  The snippets that I capture in my testimony, on this site, is what Holy Spirit points out to me. Some people may say that it is a coincidence that the same words pop up, but that is not true. For example when I received my bloomin’ message (in November 2017) the word bloom has not appeared again, except when I testify about it. Nor has the word wilderness been so prevalent as it was during December 2017.  Again, I hear many words in a day and what the Holy Spirit points out to me, is what I record in my diary and capture here.

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